"Plenty of people wouldn't agree with you. Most of them didn't even meet me in prison. And hero is all about other people's subjective opinion. What you do might be objectively good or bad," though he's making a real concession in saying that, "But heroism is a construct."
He shrugs. "Don't ask me, I never go anywhere with conversations." He flicks a rolled up piece of label at Yunlan. "Only one of us here goes around having ulterior motives about things."
"Well that's just a lie," Yunlan laughs, raising a hand to defend himself against the flying label chunk. "It's just that your ulterior motive is usually the baffle 'em with bullshit variety. And I just meant that nobody who's talked to you for five minutes'd think your loyalty to the Doctor is ever in question."
"That's not an ulterior motive, it's a lifestyle." It's like lying, he doesn't think it can be called for an ulterior motive if it's just an automatic response. "Practically everyone's loyal to something." Loyalty to the Doctor drives many of his actions, but, more than that, it's a fundamental part of who he is. The only part of himself he trusts in. That makes it something he wants people to know, yet, for reasons he couldn't articulate, sometimes finds difficult to acknowledge when it's pointed out.
"It's still an ulterior motive even if you don't have a long-term plan for it, Fitz," Yunlan assures him. "And you know how I know you're really, truly loyal to him?"
He points a dramatic finger without bothering to sit up from his boneless slouch, waiting for Fitz's answer.
Fitz stares blankly at him for a long moment, the question distracting him from disagreeing on the principle of enjoying pointless debates. How you can know if someone's actually loyal to something or not isn't something he tends to think about.
Fitz throws another piece of label at him, trying for a scowl but just ending up at 'sulky'.
"Now, that's just unnecessary." Going around, pointing out a person's... habits. What next, saying that Fitz likes turning things into stories so he doesn't have to think of them as things that have happened to him? This is exactly why it can be better to avoid making friends.
"But true." With a great huff of breath, he hauls himself back upright, dropping both of his feet onto the floor and considering Fitz. "...So. Meds kicked in? Feeling a little better?"
"I might not be." A stunning defense. He rubs his head. "Yeah. Thanks for that. Good thing the bar's nice and open, or I could've ended up with real damage from bootleg prison gin."
"Oof, don't tell me if there's bootleg prison gin, or if there is, at least tell me someone's testing that shit for methanol," Yunlan groans. "The last thing we need is a rash of poisonings."
"There probably is, people are into that sort of thing. But I wouldn't really know, because I'm not into getting poisoned or 'community'." He grins. "Aren't some of the new cases of teenage rebellion into magic or something? If kids today had real enterprising spirit, you'd see people poisoned all over."
"Thank you, Fitz, I needed new possible sources of gross bodily harm to worry about," Yunlan says with sincere and deep sarcasm, and scrubs both hands briefly over his face.
"Right! Anyway. I should let you get some breakfast down, and I need to get to Zero before Pagan thinks up any really good sarcastic one-liners to greet me with. But. Take care, okay?"
"I'm here to serve. And without any idea of how long the sentence is gonna be."
He grins. "Come on, you should let him have that much. Depriving a guy of his sarcastic one-liners. Try not to get overwhelmed by the massive Zero traffic."
"Yeah, thanks." He passes Yunlan the bottle, than waves him vaguely in the direction of the door.
"You can tell Pagan you were enjoying the bounties of the Barge commissary. And I'll take a nap. Should get some actual sleep... No doubt I'll have no choice but to see you around." Still, there are worse people. Even if Yunlan is pushy and doesn't have enough respect for not talking about things.
"Take care," Yunlan says, catching the bottle, tucking it under his arm, and lifting his free hand in a casual wave goodbye as he heads for Fitz's door. "You'll see me around!"
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Date: 2022-06-22 10:35 pm (UTC)He shrugs. "Don't ask me, I never go anywhere with conversations." He flicks a rolled up piece of label at Yunlan. "Only one of us here goes around having ulterior motives about things."
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Date: 2022-06-22 10:42 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2022-06-22 10:58 pm (UTC)He points a dramatic finger without bothering to sit up from his boneless slouch, waiting for Fitz's answer.
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Date: 2022-06-22 11:05 pm (UTC)"...No?"
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Date: 2022-06-22 11:23 pm (UTC)That's the sign of a really genuine Fitz emotion.
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Date: 2022-06-22 11:36 pm (UTC)"Now, that's just unnecessary." Going around, pointing out a person's... habits. What next, saying that Fitz likes turning things into stories so he doesn't have to think of them as things that have happened to him? This is exactly why it can be better to avoid making friends.
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Date: 2022-06-23 06:29 pm (UTC)"Right! Anyway. I should let you get some breakfast down, and I need to get to Zero before Pagan thinks up any really good sarcastic one-liners to greet me with. But. Take care, okay?"
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Date: 2022-06-23 07:05 pm (UTC)He grins. "Come on, you should let him have that much. Depriving a guy of his sarcastic one-liners. Try not to get overwhelmed by the massive Zero traffic."
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Date: 2022-06-23 07:12 pm (UTC)With an easy shrug, he gets up, holding a hand out for Fitz's juice bottle. "Here, want me to toss that for you?"
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Date: 2022-06-23 07:21 pm (UTC)"You can tell Pagan you were enjoying the bounties of the Barge commissary. And I'll take a nap. Should get some actual sleep... No doubt I'll have no choice but to see you around." Still, there are worse people. Even if Yunlan is pushy and doesn't have enough respect for not talking about things.
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Date: 2022-06-23 07:35 pm (UTC)