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From:

everythinglost

You haven't gotten the chance to go traveling properly. You probably should learn more about it if you're going larking about the universe some day.

[He takes a moment to think about it. For multiple reasons, it's not a situation he tends to end up in himself.] I get not wanting to make him feel bad, but I'm sure he doesn't think that you're leaping about in delight that he's going.

At least, I hope he doesn't think that if he's going around handing out rings.

From:

inthebiblicalsense

Well, no...but It isn't like I could tell him a lot of how I felt about his graduation. He wasn't exactly happy about it, even if I was. I know- [He frowns, staring off and away as he tries to say what he wants to.] I know he doesn't believe he actually died. It doesn't seem likely, not when I'm here as I am, but...

[He'd confirmed a long time ago that they weren't from the same dimension, but the question that had been burning in his mind since then had finally gotten answered.]

His Ethan died in the crash...and I don't know how to tell him.

From:

everythinglost

[He gives Ethan a slightly rueful look, which is somewhat rare for him.] I don't know if you 'should' tell him or not.

But that sort of thing has never matter to me.

[The Doctor would be 'his' Doctor even in a different body. Even with all his memories erased, which is more extreme.]

I'm not the one and only Fitz, and that doesn't change who I am.

From:

inthebiblicalsense

[Ethan understands how strange Fitz's life is, but some part of that makes him a little sad. He cant quite put his finger on why.]

I don't think there is much difference, between him and the Alexei I left back home, but if I tell him, I think he's going to have to accept that he did die to get here, because that is the road block.

He wouldn't be dead if I had been alive to prevent it, Either he survived or I died trying to save him.

From:

everythinglost

Yeah, that part sucks.

I don't know that I'd ever tell someone that I died because I was trying to save them. [He grins at Ethan.] You might take that as a warning sign.

From:

inthebiblicalsense

[He has the sense to at least blush, a little bit of that seriousness bleeding away.]

It isn't like he doesn't know i would have. Probably still would... jump drive or no...

From:

everythinglost

I don't know if this is his point, but I get not wanting that. I think if it was between me dying and someone I really love... I'd prefer they live.

[It's not as if far too many people haven't died for him already. But as much as he did love many of them, there's a difference in certain relationships.]

Then I wouldn't have to live without them. [It's unashamedly selfish, though he knows the Doctor would be able to go on and he's the only person he'd do that for without hesitation.]

From:

inthebiblicalsense

He might prefer it, but I promised. [He'd promised before he even knew he loved him.]

If he didn't want me to, then he shouldn't have accepted it.

[Though with that said?] I'd do the same for you, you know?

From:

everythinglost

Yeah, but you're that sort of person.

I don't mean that in a bad way. Most of my friends are that sort of person. That's why I'm there to provide variety. And it means you're right that Alexei already knew going in. Even if he didn't know what he'd end up feeling.

I mean, I'd probably die to save you if it really came down to it. But I'd work really hard to avoid it coming down to it. [He's risked his life to help others far more often than he's tried to count. But he really doesn't want to. It doesn't mean he doesn't love Ethan, just as Ethan being the sort of person who would sign up to risk his life doesn't mean he wouldn't die for Fitz because he loves him.]

From:

inthebiblicalsense

I'd hope you would work hard to avoid it... I'd feel like I'd failed you if you had to anyways. That's my job, Fitz. Both in the self-sacrificing and hard working department. [He tries to say so with a smile, but he might have to look away a moment, jaw tight. Fitz might just make him cry.

He doesn't think anyone has ever said so and it's nice, to know he's earned himself a friend like Fitz.]

I'd love to watch you be a hero though, for real, if it had a happy ending. It'd look good on you.

From:

everythinglost

[He nudges him with a knee.]

That’s why you have to remember to be as careful as you sort can be. You know I hate hard work. I do my part by avoiding unnecessary trouble.

[Ethan has heard his stories, but that generally is Fitz avoiding unnecessary trouble. His life can just be a bit too exciting.

But he’d still go out of his way to save Ethan’s life. And complain the whole way to safety if they both survived. Because Ethan is his friend.]

It is very impressive to see me all cool and heroic. People get overcome and so on.

From:

inthebiblicalsense

[He sniffs, still smiling and stops again, looking at Fitz.]

Look what you've done!

I'm in tears just thinking about it...

From:

everythinglost

[He nods, sagely.]

It happens.

One time I led a whole lot of people through a forest in an alternate dimension full of monsters/ There were tears there, I can tell you. Mine, mostly.

From:

inthebiblicalsense

[He can't help but snort, shaking his head as he wipes his eyes.]

That sounds very much like you. You played your role so well you even moved yourself to tears.

From:

everythinglost

There was a heroic speech.

Besides, if you don't play the role well, what's even the point of dressing up?

From:

inthebiblicalsense

I'd love to hear it if you can remember what it was.

[Maybe he'll feel inspired.]

From:

everythinglost

[He strikes a pose.]

When our fathers stood against enemy, they had no such resources as we have now; indeed, they abandoned even what they had, and then it was by wisdom rather than by good fortune, by daring rather than by material power, that they drove back the foreign invasion and made our city what it is today. We must live up to the standard they set: we must resist our enemies in any and every way, and try to leave it to those who come after us; an Athens that is as great as ever.

[He rubs his chin.]

Luckily, I think they took 'Athens' as a metaphor.

From:

inthebiblicalsense

[Ethan sets a hand to his mouth to hide the smile and rests his weight on one foot as he watches Fitz 'perform'. When he's like this it feels rather special, and he isn't about to waste a moment of it on pretending he isn't amused and delighted. All professionalism is gone as he nods along.]

Is that from something? It actually was quite the heroic speech, Fitz.

From:

everythinglost

That's Pericles appeal for the war against the Spartans.

[He shakes his head.]

What are they teaching you at military school these days? Oratory is a very important subject.

From:

inthebiblicalsense

Yes, well that's my worst subject.

I don't know if you noticed, but I don't really like public speaking. I'm not a leader, and I can accept that. I've got better things to offer than my words, usually.

From:

everythinglost

[Fitz winks at him.]

I bet you do.

[He waves a hand.]

Public speaking is fun when you're someone else.

From:

inthebiblicalsense

Fitz. [He nudges the other man with his elbow lightly. Whether or not that was supposed to be inappropriate, he isn't taking any chances.]

Why do you think that is? Because I feel like I agree with you, but can't put my finger on why.

From:

everythinglost

[It's absolutely meant to be inappropriate. That's what the winking is for.]

It means it's not you spouting absolute rubbish. I don't think you'd like it for exactly the reasons I do, but it's like... you're sensible enough not to want to be a leader, but you get times when you got to get people to get their shit together. But it's not like you're just Ethan saying that. You're Navigator Ethan who knows how to fly things.

From:

inthebiblicalsense

[He supposes he does put on a face for those kinds of announcements, finds the headstrong and confident person he had to be as a soldier and tries to wear that mask when he speaks.

Saying it as just himself, without the posturing for the hope that everyone will actually believe him would probably sound less convincing. And potentially embarrassing.]

Mm. Yeah, that makes sense. I'm not quite an actor, but I take comfort in a role I fit into. Or did...I think it's safe to say my career is over whether the war is done or not.

From:

everythinglost

[He winces, dramatically.]

Do you have to say 'career'? I think I'm allergic to the very word. You'll find another role, and one you might fit even more easily. Since you're attached to being yourself, even though there are so many fun people to pretend to be.