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everythinglost

[Over the years, a number people have accused Fitz of not thinking about the future. If he ever wanted to argue with them, he could bring up how he makes sure to fill up his flask in the lounge so 'staying in' doesn't have to mean 'being sober'.

Perhaps it's not the best argument, but Fitz still prefers waking up feeling awful because of a hangover over waking up feeling awful because of dreams (memories). It also makes the idea of going out for food beyond the crackers he keeps in his cabin unappealing. Forward thinking around, but, perhaps unfortunately for fully sober Fitz, he can reach his communicator.]

fine

you dont know what its like and if it was its the only thing so th at is important enough to be worth it so it doesnt matter what people say. i can trust one thing and you died younger them me so fuck off

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wildguardian

[Oh shit, Fitz is smashed. Yunlan's not sure he's entirely interpreting that whole text right, but... huh. Okay, so.]

OK, I'll grant you I was overstepping.

And I'm sorry for that.

Still think you deserve him being more careful, though.

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everythinglost

[Usually, Fitz is - if not fine with whatever people might think of the Doctor, mostly of the opinion it's better that way. He wants to talk about him, but that doesn't mean telling his secrets, and it does help, somewhat, with the urge to be defensive about him. Usually.]

he spent years looking after me through all the bullshit that happened and however it went he always tried and found me in the end made it better. he cant control the monsters but he gave up everything he had trying when he gave me a life that wasnt dying by inches with nothing and he didnt have to care. he trusts me so he doesnt have to be careful.

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wildguardian

You trust him, though, right?

From:

everythinglost

more then anything

From:

wildguardian

Then he owes it to you to know what he's getting you into.

From:

everythinglost

no on can owe that

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wildguardian

If somebody trusted me and I was going to ask them to do something dangerous, it'd be on me to know how dangerous the situation is and give them the information they need to get it done and get out in one piece.

If you trust him he's got a responsibility not to let you down.

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everythinglost

you have it the wrong way round i cant let him down

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wildguardian

No, my friend. If it means anything at all it has to go both ways.

From:

everythinglost

when he asks me to do something its becaus he believes i can do it. hes not the one letting down if i cant

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wildguardian

But what if he thinks you can do it because he's wrong about what it is? The fault is not yours if you are facing an impossible task.

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everythinglost

failures still failure. hes the one that can make the choices so thats how it is. when it comes down to it thats all that matters. maybe got eaten by the shadows in the end but it might at least have given an extra second

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wildguardian

Yeah. That's where his responsibility comes in. If he's making the choices you deserve for him to make the best choices he can.

Because you know you're not expendable, right?

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everythinglost

oof course i am

thats the point

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wildguardian

Think he'd say that if I asked him?

[It's not that he thinks Fitz's Doctor fixation is good for him, but he doesn't think that the Doctor doesn't care. The way Fitz talks about him, he's careless but not uncaring.]

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everythinglost

Dont he doesnt know you have to promise not to say anything

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wildguardian

I won't. C'mon, man.

If you don't want him to know you think you're expendable, you know he doesn't think you are.

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everythinglost

obviously doesnt hes the best. good person doesnt think about expendable so he doesnt do those caculations. especially not with friends and we are.

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wildguardian

Before he started hanging out with you guys, did he usually go it alone?

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everythinglost

no he doesnt like traveling alone. sam said hes less real if hes alone but i think its just more fun.

From:

wildguardian

So. You're not doing him any favors by thinking it's your job to do whatever he asks and he doesn't have to think about whether it's gonna get you killed.

If he's giving the orders he's the one who has to think about how dangerous they are and whether you're expendable. Otherwise, he's the one who's going to fuck up real bad and have to live with that.

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everythinglost

if he had to live with it i wouldn't exist

From:

wildguardian

what?

From:

everythinglost

[It's a few hours before there's any response, when Fitz wakes up from something close enough to sleep to a moderate level of regret. And much steadier typing.]

Sorry about that. I'm sure someone has said that the invention of text was a mistake. While they were probably wrong in the specifics, there may have been something like a point.